I know I know, it took me awhile to get around to my blog. Apologies to all my readers, life has been crazy.
I’ve always written that I want to be honest and true to myself in my writing, otherwise what’s the point? It really was a rough summer for me and a personal low. I think I already wrote about my new ulcer, if I haven’t just know that I have a new ulcer. I think it was July when I landed back in the hospital and my labs were really good so I thought I would be going home, I didn’t realize that right behind me my blood pressure decided to do something ridiculous like be 50/30, so once again I found myself in ICU.
I think I’ve always made it clear to everyone that I’m a chronic pain patient in pain management and on some pretty heavy pain medication, and when I can’t keep anything down that includes my pain medicine so by the time I get to the ER I’m in pretty rough shape from the pain. However I knew there wasn’t a lot they could do for me with my low bp, but by the next morning it was back to normal. The doctor came in to make rounds and I asked him to put me back on my oral pain meds or injections and imagine my surprise when he said no that every time I’m in the hospital I’m on morphine and I was a drug seeker. Really? I had my meds in my purse not 5 feet away from me. I explained that to him to no avail. I was so upset I left and I just managed to stay out of the hospital until last night. A couple of trips to the ER aside.
evidently, he was the only doctor on staff who felt that way, because every time I’ve been in the ER I’ve been given pain meds and no, I didn’t ask for them. I guess I’m now a little defensive about the whole damn subject.
Last week, my husband had to have arthroscopic surgery on his left knee and he’s been out of work for the better part of a month and I can’t remember a time when we’ve been this broke. Don’t get me wrong, we’re getting by day by day but wondering where the grocery money is going to come from is stressing us both out. Did I mention we’re supposed to move in about 11 days and I have no idea where the money to close is going to come from? I’m keeping the faith the Lord will provide.